The following entry was originally written in response to someone who is learning about the Baha’i Faith. The information was appreciated, so I decided to post it here. Maybe someone else will find it helpful.

I've been a Baha'i (in Kansas) for over 39 years now. I would have joined at my first meeting if anyone had even breathed that joining was possible. As I walked up to the home where the meeting was, I knew whoever those people were, they had something special and I wanted it. It took me six months to finally tell them: I want to be a Baha'i (whether you want me or not). It wasn't that they didn't want me to join, or wouldn't let me, in those days there weren't that many people who wanted the Faith and they were rather surprised.

I have never found real contradictions in the Faith. I have found that if I study a little more and dig a little deeper, I will learn more and put the "contradiction" into perspective: and there is no contradiction.

I trust 'Abdu'l-Baha when He says that there is a reason for men only on the House of Justice now and that reason will, in time, be as clear as the noon-day sun. That means to me that the reason will be evident and obvious when that time comes. It seems obvious to me that we can't understand now (so that is ok), we understand so little of any of it. The Faith and community are still so new and so vast, we can't hope to understand it all completely.

Just one little example: Do we yet, in this time, feel revulsion at the mere idea of doing something wrong (like break a minor traffic law)? Or, do we say, “the speed limit is 45, I can go at least 48 without getting a ticket,” then drive 50?

Or: gossip and backbiting which are forbidden. Have we eliminated even the desire to talk about someone else? Is that gossip, or is that simply sharing news? I don't know that we even have a clear understanding of the difference.

My point is, we do the best we can. All that Baha'u'llah asks is that we make the effort. We are not responsible for the results - that's God's business. The Bab said that if we make our best effort, God will compensate for our inadequacies.

I KNOW that I am inadequate (and my children are sure of it), but I have seen many, many times that my effort, however inadequate it may be, has resulted in unimaginable results.

One example: A major goal of the Baha'is is to let other people know the Faith exists and give them the opportunity to learn about it. And we are to "consort with the followers of all religions." So, I pray with the local Quakers, and at the local Mosque (and sometimes the synagogue ), sometimes I have gone to a Catholic retreat center which has individual hermitages (cabins) in the woods, and I have been very involved with local inter-faith endeavors. At a dinner at the mosque to break the fast of Ramadan one year, a young lady (who grew up a Muslim here) came to speak with me. Her father had apparently mentioned that I was a Baha'i who often came to the mosque. We briefly visited and I thought nothing more about it.

A few days later my supervisor at work came to me and said that I was in the Christian Science Monitor. I doubted it, but my work has been published in surprising places, so I was not sure.

Then my supervisor said, "not you, but it was you. I know it. You're the only Baha'i I know who goes to the mosque." That, I had to admit, was mostly true.

The young Muslim had returned to her college on the east coast. The Monitor had interviewed several young Muslims about their experience of growing up in the US. One of the experiences of Muslims in America is that they've had to learn new ways to be Muslim (I've seen a lot of this at the mosque). The jumah (congregation) consists of many immigrants from different countries, as well as native born Americans. The immigrants have found they cannot practice Islam in the same way as in their native home, because that differs from country to country, so they have to find new ways to be Muslim together. One of the new kind of Muslim events are inter-faith fast-breaking community dinners during Ramadan. The article mentioned that in Topeka these dinners are also held and are attended by Christians, Jews and Baha'is.

So by fulfilling the injection to "consort" with others, the existence of the Faith was mentioned nation-wide in a way that it never would otherwise have been.

I could not have gone to Boston and asked the editors of the Monitor to mention the Baha’i Faith. That would be stupid and get no result. But by simply living my life, it happened.

That's the kind of thing that happens all the time.

I am continually amazed.

"O Lord, increase my astonishment in Thee," is a recurring praying of mine.

The key is to make the effort (and be forgiving of other’s efforts); that is all that God asks.